Do Life Right

As I do this, I can't say if it’s good or bad. My mom likes it; I suppose that’s good enough. I’m discovering just how selfish I am. What I mean is I am consumed by myself (I'm alone too much) and obsessed with God’s word. I can't say if this is normal, but it definitely isn't godly. I try and filter my life by God’s word, and I self-judge by it. Sad to say, I’ve came up wanting. I know everybody is a sinner. But, I am both disgusted by and yet attracted to sin. It’s our two natures at war. I put to death the old-man, only to see him again when shook up. My old pastor used to say, “The old man is never so dead it can't be resurrected on a moments notice.” That was Al Moody, just to give him credit. I've found this saying true, and perhaps that’s why Paul said, “…I die daily….”

 Anyway, as I've been reading Isaiah, one verse is haunting me. A friend of mine says I just should relax and enjoy God’s grace. I do love His grace, it’s the only reason we are saved. Yet, I want to live a holy life, not for salvation, but for service. An ordinary vessel is for common (secular) use.  A holy vessel is for special use. Here is what Paul said to Timothy

 ²⁰ In a large house there are not only things made of gold and silver, but also things made of wood and clay. Some things are used for special purposes, and others are made for ordinary jobs.²¹ All who make themselves clean from evil will be used for special purposes. They will be made holy, useful to the Master, ready to do any good work.

 ²² But run away from the evil desires of youth. Try hard to live right and to have faith, love, and peace, together with those who trust in the Lord from pure hearts.     2 Tim 2:20-22 NCV

I want to do life right, well, what’s left with it. I’m a slow learner, but, I want to please Jesus.

Here is that verse haunting me:

¹ The Lord said, 
    "How terrible it will be for these stubborn children.
    They make plans, but they don't ask me to help them. 
       They make agreements with other nations, without asking my Spirit. 
       They are adding more and more sins to themselves. 

Isaiah 30:1 NCV

Perhaps we should pray about our plans